9:51 p.m. - 2006-09-27
Unnecessarily long.
Quick note: When you're the only student in the house and everyone else either works or is retired, it's hard to get them to realize how important a quiet environment is. Even one little question, such as "I saved half of a banana for you, Sheryl, do you want it?" Can completely disrupt your concentration. There are a lot of reasons why I can't wait till I move out. I want to be able to: Walk around in my undies (or even completely naked); not worry about not wearing a bra around my dad (it's awkward); be able to blast my music as loud as I want (without worrying about waking the baby when darren has her on the weekends), sing as loudly as I want, and dance without worrying about someone coming in--without knocking-- and seeing me; do my schoolwork with minimal interruptions; not be asked so many questions throughout the day; be able to do what I normally do without being given advice or being questioned (Do you need a jacket? Can you drive in those shoes? You're a little dressed up for school aren't you?); be able to have my own tivo! so I can watch general hospital whenever I want to!!; have my own food so I can cook and not get all my good stuff eaten; and many many other things. The reason I don't want to move out is because I get lonely fairly easily; I hate sleeping alone; I get scared sometimes when I'm alone; I will miss being able to talk to my parents whenever I want; I'll miss not having to pay for anything. OK...Side note is over.
I hate that I like writing in an online jounal so much. I really like writing in paper journals; their so much more personal. It's just that it takes so long to get a point across; and this is the lazy generation. To write all that I just typed by hand would've taken me 15 minutes! I have a lot on my mind and I gotta be able to get it out fast, you know? Anyways...
a lot has been going on, well, kind of. My brother's still living here and Bella comes every weekend. I love her, but I get so frustrate with kids--it's just not my thing right now; I don't have the patience for them. I feel badly for him all the time. Things just don't seem to go his way. I mean everything goes wrong with him. I wish he could just stop being depressed, needing sleep, and feeling badly about himself. I want him to be HAPPY. --
School is going fairly well. Tomorrow is the last day of my first course, then a week break and then a new one. I'm starting to make a few friends; I'm glad. A lot of the people are older than me, though. -- Sean's brother got married and we had a blast in laguna. Unfortunately, during the reception, I got a weird stomache ache so I didn't get to get tipsy like everyone else, but dancing to sweet caroline and shout made all the difference-- it was some of the most fun I've ever had. Then, Kali and rob got married a weekend later and I have another night of the most fun I've ever had. We danced the night away and I got perfectly tipsy off of two buck chuck! We danced the night away and then we went to a little after party; there was some male drama which was pretty funny--sometimes they're more dramatic than girls. It was fun until I realized that my really cute $17 payless shoes broke, I was really sad.-- Sean started school--only 3 more years! I hope he's happy and not too stressed. I love him the most. Diaries are so weird because I'm just talking to myself. But, that's how it is.--- Oliver is doing quite well, he's pretty much always happy. -- my mom and I went shopping today, it was fun; although we don't have much extra money anymore (retired dad) and so we only bought toilettries and such. We did stop at the thrift store and find a few good thingh, though. This is a really long and fairly pointless entry. OH! Michelle came down last weekend and we went to the bars in redlands; it was surprisingly fun. We started out alone and then I saw some friends from high school. Michelle is great because she gets along with everyone and made friends with my friends. She talked shit to this one guy who tried to hit on us and it was hilarious. I love that girl. It was fun seeing people from high school, well, fun and awkward. I need to get back to my 2 papers. Not much else to report. Peace.
