10:22 p.m. - 2003-09-24
more than this
i want us to have that kind of relationship where we go get coffee together and laugh about "the good ol' days." we've always been so distant and awkward. i have school today and you'll be at work, it alright we'll just talk in a few days. and then, when we do catch up everything is just so, i dont know, friendly i guess. it seems a little fake sometimes. he thinks he has chemical imbalances and i think i have a sibling imbalance. he has a very high electronegativity, but in this case his electrons are his own problems. he just holds on to them to them as if none of us exist. here i am with my low affinity, just wanting to help and share our porblems. will things ever be the way i envisioned them to be? i just want to be the little sister and him the older brother and i want us to have something more meaningful that "hi" and "bye." something more than "its really cold in here, did you turn the air on?" will we ever have more than that? i just want to know.
